Why Is This Happening?
I think to myself often “if only I didn’t have this thorn in my flesh.” My Life would be so much easier. After all I hate living with what presently is such a handicap. It literally affects every moment of my life. And just when I think the worst may be behind me my nerve pain suddenly intensives with no warning.
Now, I certainly know I’m blessed beyond measure. I count God’s blessings out loud quite often. Just this morning I was praising God in my car. I’m not paralyzed, blind, deaf, lonely, depressed, hopeless, forsaken or unhappy. I simply deal with something daily that makes life much more difficult to enjoy and do the things I would like to do.
But, God has grown my perspective quite a bit over the past two years. Is life really about my plans or God’s plans? Is life more about my comfort or courageously carrying out God’s will? Is life about what I see or trusting what only God can see? I could go on and on with these questions.
For sometime now I’ve been exhausted with this season of suffering. However, I no longer question whether this is God’s will for my life. I know God is using it to keep me close and humble. I know God is using it to help me minister to others in a much deeper way. After all, how can we recognize brokenness in others if we never experience it ourselves? I truly believe God allows us to go through things so we can be used to help others get through things. We may not always like how God is working, but we can’t deny that it’s through suffering God does His greatest work in us and through us.
“Praise be to the God and Father of our Lord Jesus Christ, the Father of compassion and the God of all comfort, who comforts us in all our troubles, so that we can comfort those in any trouble with the comfort we ourselves receive from God. For just as we share abundantly in the sufferings of Christ, so also our comfort abounds through Christ.”
2 Corinthians 1:3-5
Written: October 14th, 2017