The Formula For Peace
If you’ve followed my journey the past few years you know it’s been very long and painful. Most days have drained me physically, emotionally, and mentally. In fact, sometimes I’ve struggled to find the energy to even pray. However, I’ve discovered the greatest battle by far happens within the mind and heart. When going through anything draining its hard to keep going and just as hard to find peace.
For the longest time I’ve been told that I just need to quit focusing on the pain. But, it’s hard not to focus on something that demands your attention. Especially when the pain cripples you during the day and torments you in the night. You get so tired of fighting and eventually you quit believing anything can change. It can easily steal your joy and with that goes your peace.
I’ve gone to countless counseling and physical therapy sessions. I’ve always approached my Recovery like I’m preparing for the olympics. Despite all my determined efforts nothing seemed to change. I just became more depressed over all I could not change and all that had unfortunately changed.
Finally I reached a different season. I began to accept what I couldn’t change and begged for God’s help with all I could change. In time the weight on my shoulders has gotten lighter. In time I’ve learned how to be thankful for what God has done as I trust in what God is doing. I’ve given everything over to God as I continue to do everything I can towards recovery.
While physically not much has changed my peace has returned. In a way I can’t explain God has restored my peace even before He has chosen to restore me. Now, despite how my body feels my peace remains. And all I keep doing is thanking God through anything and trusting God for everything.
“Don’t worry about anything; instead, pray about everything. Tell God what you need, and thank him for all he has done. Then you will experience God’s peace, which exceeds anything we can understand. His peace will guard your hearts and minds as you live in Christ Jesus.”