Another Raw & Real Moment
Written: Jan 12, 2018 (Late Night)
Please don’t take a word I’m about to share as whining or just wanting attention. What I’m about to write is just for my own sanity, healing and hoping to let someone else not feel so alone in their journey. Extreme pain for too long takes you to a very dark place. It’s like you’re stuck in some kind of torcher chamber.
Inside those walls you feel so alone, helpless, and miserable. You would give anything for someone to set you free from the misery and pain. But, you look around and see no one with a key and who you believe really hears your cries for help.
Trust me, I know what I’m talking about when it comes to unbearable pain. My body feels so broken and my spirit has been so discouraged even now. I can’t even imagine going through such torment without my Lord & Savior Jesus Christ. I do believe I would be high as a kite or drunk as I can be right now without Jesus stabilizing me. Or maybe I would ponder taking my life if this is going to continue.
I warned you this would be raw and real. One can have great faith and still be in a great battle. I feel like satan just keeps saying, “Now, what? What are you gonna do now Mr Believer that thinks God is so good?” Well, I’m gonna keep believing, keep walking in obedience and keep trusting Jesus every step of the way.
“Stay alert! Watch out for your great enemy, the devil. He prowls around like a roaring lion, looking for someone to devour.”
1 Peter 5:8