Will You Be Faithful Even When It Hurts
I’m back in the tub and honestly my back feels like I just had surgery yesterday. It physically hurts so bad in the surgical area in a way I’ve not felt in quite sometime. I really don’t know what to do to improve things. This level of pain just sucks the air and life out of you. You can’t ignore it if you tried.
Earlier I took my 7yr old to Wendy’s. We held hands and he led out our prayer of blessing as usual. He poured out his heart of thanksgiving. He thanked God for his good day and for his daddy day. He even thanked God for helping his daddy feel better so he could have a great daddy day. Then, he asked could I play a game with him when we got back home.
So, I tried my best to sit at the table like a normal human being. My body aching from head to toe. My son just thrilled that I’m trying to play Ben10 with him whatever that is about. I simply rolled the dice each turn and let him tell me what to do next. Finally, I said “daddy can’t finish this game.” He said, “I know your back hurts really bad. It’s ok if you go get in the bath.” You could tell he’s seen this scenario many times unfortunately.
The only thing I can muster good right now is I know this is developing my perseverance, faith and character. If I didn’t believe Jesus was with me I would have long ago gone crazy. I would have long ago given up. Because I’ve had countless painful days with no sign of hope this side of Heaven. I’m trying to fight the good fight. I’m trying to keep the faith. And I’m trying to let God display His glory through my pain. I’m hoping this can be said at the end of my life.
“I have fought the good fight, I have finished the race, and I have remained faithful. And now the prize awaits me—the crown of righteousness, which the Lord, the righteous Judge, will give me on the day of his return. And the prize is not just for me but for all who eagerly look forward to his appearing.”
2 Timothy 4/7-8