Let Faith Arise
Still no sleep as I lie here itching from the constant vibrations of nerve pain throughout my body. There seems to be only two states of living for me. Either thinking the worst is behind me or absolute misery. The unpredictable misery drives me insane. I would pay any amount of money to get rid of this madness. I would endure any level of treatment, surgery or discipline if I knew it had a chance at giving me relief.
But, time has led me to believe that most of this can only come out through prayer. And only God knows His will for my life. I do fully trust in God’s will. I just want to do what I can and be faithful every step of the way. I’ve had so many God moments during this journey. And, I’ve had countless Hell moments.
Father God, I continue to give you this pain. Continue to use it all for my growth and your glory. Continue to give me the necessary strength and comfort to carry on. And keep giving me the faith to trust You beyond what I feel or see at the moment.
“And it is impossible to please God without faith. Anyone who wants to come to him must believe that God exists and that he rewards those who sincerely seek him.” Hebrews 11:6