My EGO Had To Go
This process didn’t start overnight in my life. Day by day, hour by hour, and minute by minute God has been removing my ego. EGO stands for Edging God Out. I had no idea how much I was actually standing in God’s way. I especially didn’t realize how much I was relying on myself instead of Him. I’ve always preached that you’ve got to decrease and He must increase, but now I’m having to live out that sermon.
One by one the things that used to prop up my life are being removed. As my strength keeps fading the more I have to rely fully on God’s strength alone. What I used to be able to do for others I’m now having to totally put in the arms of Jesus. How I approached life in the past has been totally rearranged. God has torn down the self-reliant man I use to be and is teaching me to fully rely on Him. On one hand it’s completely liberating and on the other it’s somewhere I’ve never been before.
I wake up daily trying to reach back to how things used to be. However, God has removed those crutches and ego driven ways. I’m well aware that my every breath depends on God breathing into me. It’s no longer just lyrics to a song to say “I can’t even walk without Him holding my hand.” I don’t know what lies ahead, but I know fully it’s not about me feeling in control. From here on out God will receive all the glory for anything and everything good in my life.
“If I must boast, I would rather boast about the things that show how weak I am. God, the Father of our Lord Jesus, who is worthy of eternal praise, knows I am not lying.” (2 Corinthians 11:30-31)