Real & Raw Take 2000
I literally feel like a fish out of water. My breathing gets more laboring by the second. I’m laying on my side constantly praying for relief. I honestly wonder how much more I can take. It hurts even thinking about it. Not to mention going through it.
I don’t have any explanation for how I’ve made it this far except by the grace of God. Daily I feel I’m one step away from a total nervous breakdown. I can’t think about the week or the day ahead. I’ve just got to take things by the next minute or hour. It’s like I’m in a jail cell full of pain and anxiety.
It’s getting harder and harder. I know it’s not what anyone wants to hear. But, it’s where I am and I’m desperate for your continued prayers. My faith is being tested beyond its borders. My strength has long been gone as I’m just running totally on Jesus fuel. I know I will make it through I just don’t have the answers or strength myself.
“Have mercy on me, Lord, for I am faint; heal me, Lord, for my bones are in agony. My soul is in deep anguish.
How long, Lord, how long? Turn, Lord, and deliver me; save me because of your unfailing love.”