God, I Need Your Mercy
Most have no clue what it’s like to start everyday off miserable before you ever step out of the bed. Chronic pain and certainly nerve pain is so difficult to predict. It’s been cranking back up within me since 3:25am and I know for certain my spinal stimulator is presently hardly touching things.
Thank God it finally reached 7am and time for my morning days. I’m still waiting on any kind of relief. On ice and literally my last nerve right at the moment. I hate this feeling so much. Gonna have to take a Valium as well before this takes me totally off the edge.
The moment I think I’m headed towards possible normal moments my present reality rears it’s head like a terrible nightmare. Father God, I ask You once again for Your mercy and grace that have never failed me before. I can’t live without it and Your constant love!
Written later in the day. It’s now 1:40pm and I’m just waking up from my meds that did give me some rest and some relief. I don’t feel great, but much better than earlier. God always comes through and answers prayers!
“The steadfast love of the Lord never ceases; his mercies never come to an end; they are new every morning; great is your faithfulness.”