Uncertain, But Certain
I’ve been back in the tub for maybe an hour. Earlier before I ever even saw the light of day I spent another hour in here for relief before heading to church. I’m back to spending 4-5 hours a day in this pool of relief. My new battery is really hurting me. It literally feels like it’s pressed against nothing but bone. Hoping and praying that with time it will become less and less painful.
This morning I drank just a little too much of my energy drink mix. By 9:30am I could feel my heart pounding. In fact, most of the day my heart rate ranged between 110-115 BPM. There were some times that it really scared me, but this was all my attempt to counter my medication and springing forward an hour. So, I will not repeat that dosage again.
Even still today has been a God made day. I love how God can use our greatest weaknesses to strengthen others. I’ve never been more confident that I’m exactly where God wants me to be doing all God called me to do. Do I enjoy the many long days of pain? NO. But, do I feel His absolute peace? YES.
Life is full of “This Doesn’t Make Sense” moments. However, even in those moments God has a plan. And, no matter where life finds us we’ve never been called to make sense of anything. We have been called to trust and obey God with everything.
“Trust in Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding. In all your ways acknowledge Him and He will make your path straight.”