Sleepless In South Carolina
I’ve only had 2 hours sleep over the past 36 Hours. My legs are vibrating and my body just weary. I’ve not gone this long with this little sleep in quite sometime. My body’s condition just can’t afford to go without the rest. However, despite meds that would usually guarantee rest, sleep just won’t come. It’s as if there is just too much current running through me veins and it’s keeping my internal clock in four wheel drive.
I’m spent so many hours in a hot tub that I should be a prune by now. It’s still my guaranteed go to for instant relief. My stimulator is just not covering my nerve pain like it had been. And any time it’s not I can expect pain in my lower back and itching nerve sensations running from my hands through my feet.
Sitting here in this tub I’m realizing God is developing one thing I rarely had before called patience. I’m actually surprised at myself as I’ve learned to not just watch a time clock, but instead live each moment. Going wild changes nothing for me. I’ve actually tried that approach many times. However, waiting on God means I’m choosing to not run ahead or lag behind of what God presently wants in my life. Yes, it’s still painful but in God’s hands still purposeful. God is teaching me to trust in His timing, seize each moment, and not be afraid to wait on Him to always delivers things in His perfect timing.
“He has made everything beautiful in its time. He has also set eternity in the human heart; yet no one can fathom what God has done from beginning to end.”
Pastor Craig Crosby