Smiling Through The Pain
As frustrating as things have been recently I’m far from discouraged. Sure, I’m concerned about what the future might hold with my health. But, I’m too consumed with seeking to let God work now rather than just worry about what happens later. Honestly, I’ve never seen God more at work. I just don’t feel great. However, it’s crystal clear that God is still great.
Concerning my MRI it’s still up in the air where, when or if I can get it with all the hardware throughout my back. They have tried for 2 days straight to find a place that can do it. The other night was definitely a disappointing nightmare. It hurt me so bad just to lie down in that MRI machine with a huge battery gouging me to the bone for 25-30 minutes. Then, to be told it just couldn’t be done for the 3rd time in 3 months. Then, to have my Honda Pilot breakdown which will require a brand new motor to ever drive it again. So, we’re down to one vehicle for all of us. Like they say when it rains it pours.
Even still I feel God’s goodness all around me. It’s a messy site within, but I just can’t deny all I see God doing despite my continuous nerve breakdowns. I truly believe my best days or ahead. And, I know that if I am to be healed it will be a very clear miracle work of God for all to see. I’m still praying and slaying the enemy in Jesus’ mighty name. And, I’m still believing that this is purposeful pain for Heaven’s gain.
“And I am certain that God, who began the good work within you, will continue his work until it is finally finished on the day when Christ Jesus returns.”