Walking Through Fire
I won’t go into every detail, but there are no words for my current situation except warfare. Over the past few weeks I’ve been attacked every possible way. Physically, financially, emotionally, mentally, and all at once. It’s obvious satan hopes I’ll either go insane, quit believing, or kill myself. Maybe all of the above in that order. While all of these areas have been tempting I can fortunately tell you none have been an option. However, I can’t deny or even fully explain the flames I’ve felt both inside and out.
I know beyond any doubt that satan is pulling out every tactic. He knows that God has called me to a mission that is literally pulling multitudes out of the pits of Hell with thousands on our radar. I’m talking about those satan thought would never be cared about or reached. It’s no coincidence that the moment ministry efforts switched into four wheeled drive satan came running out of his closet. It’s as if every demon of those we’re trying to rescue are chasing me. Nothing surprises me or makes sense anymore. It’s obvious satan has been allowed to do anything but kill me or my family.
For instance, this morning my stimulator settings were set 4 notches lower than they have been for weeks. Yet, the entire insides of my lower body have felt on fire for hours. I turned it down several more notches an hour ago, but I’m still waiting on the flames to die down inside. My tears come with literally no warning as my cries are but dry heaves. I know many wonder where is my God right now. I’m telling you He is right here. Later you will remember reading this terrible report and you won’t believe the God report. So, I’m making sure I shed light on these dark days so that later God’s glory is clearly revealed in the brighter days.
“When you go through deep waters, I will be with you. When you go through rivers of difficulty, you will not drown. When you walk through the fire of oppression, you will not be burned up; the flames will not consume you.”