I Experienced A Glimpse Of Hell
I don’t even know where to begin. Last night was absolute living Hell. Feeling bad is one thing, but having no way to stop internal flames throughout your lower body is indescribable. I ended having to turn off my spinal stimulator for over 6 hours due to over stimulation. Plus o had no answer or explanation for the intensity of nerve pain that was absolutely tormenting me by the second.
I’m not joking when I say that this has only increased my passion to do everything possible to never get used to men, women, boys and girls dying and going to Hell. I can’t imagine what eternal flames and constant burning inside and out must feel like. But, I can promise you I know what internal flames feel like throughout one’s lower body.
I would have paid any price for relief. I would have driven a million miles for things to calm down. Yet, there was nothing me or anyone could do. I’m still experiencing flames within as I just got to turn my stimulator back on and it will take time to get back in my system. Plus I took my morning meds 2 hours late because at some point late in the night I passed out asleep because of the nighttime meds taken. I’m just in a fix and waiting for just a little relief. God knows I’ve literally been through the fire and flames are still burning! I go in the morning to for an initial visit to discuss the placement of my future shot. But, who knows how long I will be left in this Hell cycle waiting on it’s approval.
“Night pierces my bones; my gnawing pains never rest.”