I felt it coming through every fiber within me. Every muscle in my back has become spastic. My legs have been throbbing with pain. It’s like dealing with a surge you just can’t stop or avoid. Even the slightest bit of stress leads to my meltdown.
Earlier I was just simply looking back over the message God has led me to preach this Sunday. I like to make sure I’m fully prepared to guide people clearly towards God’s will. It requires my total mind and heart being invested. It’s so much more than just talking for 35-40 minutes. It’s letting God pipeline his truth through you.
Anyway, the pressure that comes with this responsibility is very taxing on my malfunctioning nervous system. I’m presently laying on a bed of ice seeking to settle my back muscles. I’m casting all my cares upon the Lord for I know He cares for me. I’m praying that I at least get a few quality hours of sleep. That tomorrow won’t bring with it any more sporadic meltdowns.
“Anxiety in a man’s heart weighs him down, but a good word makes him glad.” (Proverbs 12:25)