Where Do I Begin
I’ve got one of those weeks ahead that I would love to bypass. Nothing I can get into detail about on social media. I’m still just in a total dog fight physically, emotionally, mentally, and for certain spiritually. There is no doubt that the enemy hopes at any point that I will simply wave my white flag and give up the fight. Well, I have decided to do that it’s just not the way he was hoping. I’m waving my white flag, but it’s in total surrender to my Savior and Lord Jesus Christ.
This week I’ve got some doctor appointments that will effect my entire future medical care. I’ve known all along that apart from a miracle from God this life changing nerve pain battle will continue. In fact, it’s very likely I will need more surgery, shots and procedures in the future. For those wondering was this spinal cord stimulator worth the trouble? ABSOLUTELY. It’s not been easy dealing with all the hiccups along the way, but the necessity of the implanted unit is not even in question. I would have already been in a crazy house by now if not for this stimulator. It may not cure everything, but it gives me at least a chance to keep things bearable each day. Getting rid of this unit anytime soon would be like someone with severe breathing issues totally getting rid of their oxygen machine.
My future medical bills over the next thirty years alone if God allows will likely be off the chain. Therefore, because this was a work related injury I’ve got to stay connected with workman’s compensation for many years to come. I wish this was all just a dream and this battle would come to an easy end. However, we all reach a point where we can’t look back questioning everything that has happened to us. We’ve simply got to make the best God led prayerful decisions moving forward. We’ve got to totally trust God with the past, present, and future. There will always be a million voices, thoughts, and concerns. I’m simply choosing to believe that God is still God. No matter what has happened or does happen. Just keep me in your prayers this week and know I’m lifting each of you reading this up to our Heavenly Father.
“Rejoice always, pray continually, give thanks in all circumstances;for this is God’s will for you in Christ Jesus.” ( 1 Thessalonians 5:16-18)