My body has literally been vibrating all day with nerve pain. My vision and mind have been constantly clouded. The sound of my own voice makes my own body hurt more. I’ve tried to adjust my spinal cord stimulator but nothing has made any difference. It’s as if I’m plugged into an electrical outlet and simply can’t unplug myself.

As I’ve tried to explain to others I can’t even understand what is happening inside my own body. All I know is it’s not my imagination. Every minute brings discomfort and every moment is unsettling. I wish it was a dream I could just wake up from. Instead it’s a nightmare that I keep waking up to.

I’ve been home and in my bed all day. It takes everything I have to even prepare to preach on Sundays. It’s as if I’m having to do so tied down and surrounded by a million voices. God only knows my full struggle. Even still I’m doing all I can with what I have to offer. In fact, I’m in the midst of preparing a message that I know will transform countless lives. So, I will continue to walk through this clouded valley since it’s not within my power to remove it.

“Even when I walk through the darkest valley, I will not be afraid, for you are close beside me. Your rod and your staff protect and comfort me.”

Psalm 23:4