Late Night Freakout
Had already had an evening full of torment. Was just excited to finally go to sleep. Was in a very deep sleep for 1hr and 45 minutes only to be woken up feeling like my body was being electrocuted. My stimulator was turned down the past 24 hours simply because I got tired of feeling like my whole body was constantly buzzing. The sensitivity of my nervous system is off the chain.
Needless to say I turned my stimulator back up a few notches because the alternative without it doing it’s job can absolutely freak you out. Everything I’ve been experiencing lately has just felt like one big bad dream. It’s not an issue of just settling down or praying more. You’ve just got to hold on for dear life at times!
There is no magic pill with this stuff. My nerve damage is so extensive that it still surprises me daily. The skin breakouts due to my Neuropathy continue to increase. Hoping I can get my stimulator adjusted ASAP. My wife is taking me Friday morning to see my counselor which is long overdue. I’ve just got to take things hour by hour and day by day. So far my favorite activity continues to be sleep. Because it’s the only time I’m not unsettled. I just continue to pray that changes soon!
“Do not be anxious about anything, but in every situation, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God. And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus.”
This is not a cliche easily typed! “When you go through a trial, the sovereignty of God is the pillow upon which you lay your head.” – Charles Spurgeon