Stuck In A Rut


None of it happens overnight. It’s a little bit of this and a little bit of that. Next thing you know you just feel stuck. You might not be rolling backwards, but you’re no longer moving forward. You know something needs to change, but you’re in a dog fight towards making those changes.

I’m certainly caught in a rut physically, mentally, emotionally, and spiritually. I’m so tired of fighting with my body the past few years. I’ve had so many highs and even more low points. I feel like I’m starting back at ground zero every week. I’m drained in every way and can easily get overwhelmed by the heaviness on my shoulders. After all, I’m only 43 and my legs are so weak I’ve been walking with a cane.

Deep in my heart I’m far from giving up. I know the only way to get stronger is one faith step at a time. I’ve just been stuck in a recovery rut for sometime. My recovery efforts have been morning, day and night for so long. It’s just so tough to maintain the necessary intensity and consistency for so long. We’re talking 985 days straight of climbing uphill just to be able to keep going.

I’m still confident I will get stronger. Life is full of seasons of ups and downs. We can’t let our feelings dictate our faith. We can’t move forward if we’re constantly looking back. We must be determined to make the most of each day and opportunity. Take the next right God led step and trust God for the victory. God will always take us through the ruts and give us reasons to smile again. I thank God for the ruts because it’s there I’ve realized I truly can’t even walk without Him holding my hand.

“He reached down from heaven and rescued me; he drew me out of deep waters. He rescued me from my powerful enemies, from those who hated me and were too strong for me. They attacked me at a moment when I was in distress, but the LORD supported me. He led me to a place of safety; he rescued me because he delights in me. The LORD rewarded me for doing right;
(Psalm 18:16-20)

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