Still Fighting For Me
I just spent 3 1/2 hours straight in the tub. While it’s my greatest source of relief I can’t stay in there forever. My skin has definitely been reacting negatively to so much time in water. Even still, I’ll take the breakouts sometimes in exchange for the relief. Overall, my pain has been manageable. Even more important God has been giving me such peace.
My legs have been very weak lately. I’ve basically had to get over my pride and use my cane to take pressure off my legs. It really does help a lot more than I expected. It doesn’t matter how much sleep I get my day starts with my legs under 50 percent strength. While my legs keep vibrating I’ve had to keep my spinal cord stimulator running at a much higher level.
The biggest welcomed change has been in my mind and heart. I keep giving God my concerns and He keeps giving me peace in return. I feel so grateful for what I can do and how I do feel. I know things could be so much worse. While I would love all the pain to go away I’m so thankful for what God is doing. He is making me stronger in my resolve. He is opening door after door for me to encourage others through my pain. I continue to fight, but I can feel God fighting for me.
“The Lord will fight for you; you need only to be still.”