I started a 7 day challenge 3 days ago. A challenge to attempt not to wallow in my pain as I continue to work through it. Yes, it’s still staring me in my face day and night. Yes, it’s still very difficult to get around. Yes, I feel miserable often and wish it would all just go away.

However, I truly believe it’s just not God’s timing yet. God is still humbling, growing, and refining me through this challenging season. I’m learning how to lean on Him completely instead of myself. I’m learning to trust Him instead of my circumstances. My faith is being stretched like never before as I’m choosing to free fall into the arms of Jesus.

I’m at that point that if it’s all going to work out it will be because God alone performed a miracle. The enemy is still attacking me from every angle possible. I’m being tested physically, mentally, emotionally, spiritually and financially. It’s all driving me further to my knees. All my man made props have been knocked down. It’s obvious that I’m completely dependent upon God’s grace and goodness to get through this valley. Even still I’m fully trusting God to show up and show out in my life. To do a Mighty work for our good and His glory.

“So humble yourselves under the mighty power of God, and at the right time he will lift you up in honor.”

(1 Peter 5:6)