Why Am I So Surprised?
Today, I road out with my wife to deal with some family matters. I didn’t want her to go alone and I really wanted to be with her. She goes so many places without me due to my health. So, I thought I would tag along since she would be driving. Somehow, I sometimes forget the reality of my pain until that reality forces itself in my face.
Bottom line is my body can barely endure even a one hour ride anymore. My legs are gone before I even leave my backyard. Even with my cane its getting very difficult to walk around for any significant amount of time. It’s as if someone has gone into my legs and stripped out it’s power source. I literally feel like I’m dragging my legs everywhere I go. I’m certain my wife can tell everything I attempt is a dog fight.
Maybe you think you’re over something and your cold reality keeps slapping you in the face. All it takes is something small to reveal your true struggle. Your grief or pain can be triggered when you least expect it. Next thing you know you feel so far from where you would like to be. Nonetheless, none of our struggles take God by surprise. So, we have to trust that if He allows it He must have a clear plan to use it.
“Dear friends, do not be surprised at the fiery ordeal that has come on you to test you, as though something strange were happening to you. But rejoice inasmuch as you participate in the sufferings of Christ, so that you may be overjoyed when his glory is revealed. (1 Peter 4:12-13)