Lord Have Mercy On Me
My pain level is presently a 7 out 10. The only reason I wouldn’t call it any higher is because an 8-10 would mean I need to be in the emergency room. I can’t believe that in just 6 hours I’ve got to endure another 3-4 hour long Functional Capacity Evaluation. I’ve not been able to sleep a wink all night. I didn’t fall asleep until after 4am the night before due to my itching. Sadly, my new meds weren’t able to stop my itching tonight either.
Yet, just a few hours from now after zero hours sleep my wife will be driving me to do numerous exercises that are going to hurt me so badly. Right now, I can barely get out of the tub by myself. It’s typically an ordeal just to attempt putting on my own socks and shoes. All I can do is pray, pray, and pray some more. It’s going to take an absolute miracle to not have a neurological breakdown today.
Please pray for me as I try my best just to make it through this day. My pain level is very close to panic level. My entire body is throbbing and I don’t know anything else I can do. My doctor told me yesterday to be careful about taking much Valium with my additional meds. So, I’m trying to save the one I can take for right before or after my appointment. The Lord knows I’m desperate for His grace and calming touch.
“Night pierces my bones; my gnawing pains never rest.” (Job 30:17)