Easier Said Than Done
I find myself at a very nerve wrecking crossroad. It’s real easy to say I fully trust God with my future. However, my anxiety levels let me know that my mind is struggling to agree with my heart. I so want to believe God for my healing. Yet, the way my body presently feels makes me wonder if greater improvement is even possible.
This unfamiliar crossroads is testing my faith down to its core in ways the past has never done. Can I put my mind over matter and reboot my recovery process? Can I fully trust God to do what I haven’t been able to do in 34 months? Can I simply take one faith step at a time towards where God is leading me to follow? Can I totally free fall putting everything into God’s hands? Or will I keep putting the demands on my shoulders?
I’m so tired of this journey and my body feels weaker than ever before. Yet, quit is not an option. I’ve got too many reasons to keep fighting. But, I know if I’m to get any stronger I’ve got to trust God every step of the way. I’ve got to let the past go and let God totally lead me in the present towards a brighter future. I’ve got to keep reminding myself that faith is not about how I feel about things. It’s fully trusting God with everything for greater things I can’t do by myself.
Lord Jesus “I do believe, but help me overcome my unbelief!”