Last Night Was Awful But….
Last night was one of the most painful nights I’ve had in a long time. I’m sure I’ve had worse in days gone by. However, for a few hours I felt a level of pain I’ve not felt in quite some time. When it hits you suddenly at that level you’re shocked and quickly broken down. It’s usually a product of being too tired, trying to live normal, or too much on my mind. Anyone of those things can send my nerve wrecked body in the ditch of severe pain.
Praise God all the extra medication finally kicked in at some point. While it leads to many bad dreams I’m thrilled to say I got nearly 10 hours sleep. As I lay here on my side I feel like I’m recovering from a severe seizure. Why? Because it does what it wants with my body and there is nothing I can do. When the seeming forever intense episode is done my body feels fried and toasted within. This is why I’ve said that I’ve had numerous full body neurological seizures.
I’m sure that’s not the proper term for things, but it’s the best way I can explain it. I certainly didn’t see last night coming. I can also tell you that I’ve had that kind of episode countless times. You can’t think clearly or see hope when you’re in its grips. Even anything around me such as a cell phone that vibrates or a certain noise can take me over the edge. Anyway, I’m praying God shows me what to do to make sure that doesn’t happen again any time soon. Just thanking God for much needed sleep and present relief from that insane pain.
“Give thanks in all circumstances; for this is God’s will for you in Christ Jesus.”
(1 Thessalonians 5:18)