Making Adjustments NOW
It doesn’t take a rocket scientist to recognize one consistent thing in my life right now. I can’t afford to not stay on top of the pain. Because once it’s on top of me I’m completely at it’s mercy. My worst times have all been at night usually after 9pm. I’ve been watching this trend the last few weeks. But, I’m at that point where I’ve gotta make adjustments!
There is never a minute of my life that I’m totally pain free. Apart from a miracle that will always be the case. However, there is a big difference between my day time bearable pain and the nighttime horrifying pain. I know that in order to deal with the nighttime pain I must be proactive. By 8 pm I need to have taken all my nighttime meds. I need to be laying down on my side by 9pm at the latest. It’s just where my limitations are at this time.
I’ve not been respecting the boundaries my body keeps showing me are necessary. It doesn’t matter what I used to do or what others can do. For me, I’ve gotta body that is much like some in a nursing home. Either I’m able to be up or need to be totally down. I’ve got to watch for warning signs. I’ve got to remind myself how terrible things will be if I don’t make the adjustments every night. So, I’m believing that tonight will be totally different. I’m doing alright right now. I will continue to let God give me discernment step by step. I won’t forget the past few nights anytime soon.
“You say, “I am allowed to do anything”–but not everything is good for you. You say, “I am allowed to do anything”–but not everything is beneficial.” (1 Corinthians 10:23)