Taking The Mask Off
With the help of medication I slept very well last night. There’s no doubt that sleep is critical to my broken body being able to heal or operate. There’s also no doubt this colder weather has lots to do with my nerves flaring up even more. I’m much better if I’m laying on a heating pad or in a hot bath. However, after the cold air invades my body real havoc begins.
Sadly, another component of my struggle is I’m just not great company in the midst of it. My poor wife has to deal with someone who’s nerves are shot most of the time. My condition puts me on edge and feeling very quick tempered. Feeling trapped by the pain makes me feel useless. I see so much that needs to be done, but can’t do most of it myself. I hate how it all makes me feel.
For those consumed with pain of any form. I realize it makes you feel overwhelmed and miserable. It goes with you everywhere. Physically, emotionally and mentally your life feels constantly invaded. Your struggle especially affects those you closely love and spend the most time around. Know that only God knows your struggle. Only God can settle your heart and help you through the madness. I’ve got to constantly regroup with God alone. Only in His presence is my mind and heart renewed. Only through sincere, confessing prayer am I able to be settled down.
“Do not be anxious about anything, but in every situation, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God. And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus.” (Philippians 4:6-7)
“Jesus often withdrew to lonely places and prayed.” (Luke 5:16)