Only Half That Man
In my heart and mind I’m stronger than ever. However, my body feels so weak. I’m still in the process of accepting my new limitations. In many respects my new identity is still tough to embrace. Unfortunately, I really have no other choice than to swallow my new reality.
I would say I’m beyond the shocked stage. In fact, I’ve already passed the eye of this grieving season. Even still it just takes a long time to fully let go of the good old days. Back when I could sit, stand or walk without pain. Back when I could do way more physically than I can ever do now.
I lay here nightly with so many on my heart and mind. With so many things left undone that I used to always do for others. Instead, all I can do is hope others grant me the grace I will always grant them. All I can do is hope God continues to lavish me with His amazing grace. Daily I still give all I’ve got to give towards doing God’s will. I’m just grateful God still loves me when I’m only half the man I used to be.
“But he said to me, “My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.” Therefore I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that Christ’s power may rest on me.” 2 Corinthians 12:9