I Don’t Know What To Pray
I absolutely hate it, but there’s nothing I can do about it. I’ve now had to turn off my spinal stimulator completely for the second time today. Being over stimulated is like putting me in an electric chair. It makes me feel terrible and like I’m going crazy. Focusing is impossible and everything puts me on edge.
There’s no denying the stimulator is the source of my present greatest issues. Usually about an hour after turning it off I’m no longer vibrating continuously. I can’t believe the very thing I need for pain relief is bringing me additional crazy discomfort. However, shutting it off concerns me greatly. Seriously, the last time I shut the unit off for an entire day it turned me into just a puddle of emotion. I started crying uncontrollably at my counselor’s office.
All I can do is wait and see what happens. I have no doubt that if I choose to leave it off all night I will barely be able to move in the morning. Pain I forgot even existed will come rushing back. Yet, if I don’t leave it off for several hours I will go crazy from it’s over stimulating pulses. I have no idea what’s going on right now as I’ve tried everything I know. I know it’s a man made device, but this man relies heavily on this stimulator working properly. Please keep me in your prayers as I will keep you in mine.
“And the Holy Spirit helps us in our weakness. For example, we don’t know what God wants us to pray for. But the Holy Spirit prays for us with groanings that cannot be expressed in words.” Romans 8:26