The Battle Is Calming
My heart has finally settling down some. For awhile I thought it might jump out my chest. I simply have no idea why this unit is randomly doing this to me all of sudden. It’s done so well for so long. I’ve learned so much about how to best use it. Now I’m just at a wait and see point.
Finally, I turned my stimulator back on. It will only be on for 30 seconds per hour. Where as before it was set to come on for 30 seconds every 15 minutes. Right now everything I’m having to do with this man made device is far from common. I’m on an island that even my adjustment technicians have no experience of doing things this way. I told them I’ve always been abnormal.
I’m back out of the tub for the second time tonight. Having to just lay on my side and be still as possible. Keeping constant heat on the tailbone area. The countless tears I shed were like releasing toxins. I feel like someone after they’ve thrown up everything possible.
I’m heading to bed so thankful for a wife that tucks me in gently nightly. She holds my hand and just assures me we’re in this journey together. Her very presence pipelines God’s very peace to my soul. I keep letting her know this is not over by any means. We’re just in another season of great spiritual war. Goodnight!
“For our struggle is not against flesh and blood, but against the rulers, against the authorities, against the powers of this dark world and against the spiritual forces of evil in the heavenly realms.” Ephesians 6:12