Why I Write IN The Pain
Over the past few years I’ve actually had several people say “all you do is talk about your pain.” As I told a told a very dear senior citizen lady a long time ago “that’s because I’m always in pain.” Truth is I started my faith walking page so I could continue to process my pain out loud. I realize not everyone wants to hear about my painful journey. Anyone that can’t stand to hear about it is welcomed to unfollow this page any time.
Now, the truth is I don’t always just talk about my pain. I do purposely choose to write while I’m in the midst of the heaviest pain. Why? Because it’s when I’m most in tuned to my humanity. Why? Because it’s when I can most identify with other people’s pain. Why? Because I refuse to waste this agony that I know God has allowed for greater purpose.
Truth is this page wouldn’t even exist if not for my pain. Without the pain I wouldn’t feel the least compelled to write. I write because my pain has birthed a depth of compassion I can’t explain. My pain has forced a level of God reliance that before simply wasn’t possible. So, I write in the pain because I must learn how to praise Jesus even in the midst of the pain. I pray somehow that you won’t just see my pain, but see the God who proves His faithfulness despite my nonstop pain.
“Dear friends, don’t be surprised at the fiery trials you are going through, as if something strange were happening to you. Instead, be very glad—for these trials make you partners with Christ in his suffering, so that you will have the wonderful joy of seeing his glory when it is revealed to all the world. 1 Peter 4:12-13