Find Your Median Life

Earlier today I was ready to declare this breakthrough Tuesday. That was not long after my weekly medical massage. While I still had some pain I felt miles beyond my normal. Seems like the slightest bit of relief leads me to believe I’ve been miraculously healed. Every quality moment really does lift my spirit to new heights.

Then, I got home only to run into this wall of complete reality. I felt like I could barely get in the door if I had to walk another step. At least without wanting to throw up from the nausea of nonstop throbbing pain. Seriously, I felt like a school boy begging my wife to go fill the tub up once more with hot water. Sadly, it appears I will spend another evening soaking to calm the pain.

Now, let me praise God that I’ve had three consecutive good days. The improvement tempted me to do way more than my body will allow. I’ve literally been going nonstop the past three days from morning until night. Now, reality has knocked the denial clean out of me.

Is this not how life constantly feels. Breakthrough feels so close one moment. You feel so close to breakdown the next. This makes you feel low and helpless. It’s hard to see the positive in the cloud of the pain.

Tonight, I’m asking God to help me live with balance. Balance between the proper rest and activity. Life doesn’t always give us this option. When it does we must choose wisely. We must consider our health and limitations. Otherwise, we will pay for it most of the time.

“I have the right to do anything,” you say—but not everything is beneficial. “I have the right to do anything”—but not everything is constructive.” 1 Corinthians 10:23

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