I’m Taking Another Extensive Break
I’ve been thinking about this the past few days. I believe it’s best I take another extensive break from posting anything about my pain journey on social media. No, I’m not the worst I’ve ever been especially compared to a year ago this time. A year ago I really thought I needed to file for full disability, resign from pastoring, and just accept that I couldn’t get any better. In fact, I was still walking with a cane. Praise God I was able to overcome a very dark, dark season and get back up on my feet.
Now, I’m certainly not where I hoped to be this time this year. In fact, how I’ve been feeling lately has been discouraging way more than physically. I’m once again emotionally and mentally drained from my efforts towards recovery. Right now my present approach just isn’t working. Also, me writing about my pain isn’t helping so something must change. There’s a big difference between working through your pain and wallowing in it.
So, just as God led me to do a year ago this exact time. I feel led to step back again and seek God more desperately. This time I’m not near as reluctant because God has proven how trusting Him fully does change things. I’m not backing down in my faith. I’m stepping up in my faith. I’m not giving up in my hope. I’m totally seeking God to carry me even further towards greater hope.
“And I am certain that God, who began the good work within you, will continue his work until it is finally finished on the day when Christ Jesus returns.” Philippians 1:6