I’ve Been So Blessed
I grew up in a Christian home raised by two great parents. Never did I feel unloved. Never did I feel scared for even one day. Compared to most I’ve always had a great life. Married a beautiful woman 23 years ago I dearly love and who I know still dearly loves me. We have 4 wonderful boys. Overall I’ve been very blessed for 44 years of my existence on planet earth.
God has allowed me the opportunity to be his vessel of comfort to many. I still consider being a minister of the gospel an awesome privilege. Even now with my limitations God allows me to be a part of His kingdom work. I thank God daily for the life and opportunity He gives me. Lord knows I don’t deserve any of it.
The past four years has been by far my most broken and painful. I’ve been like someone who was in a very bad car accident. It takes you awhile to know what even hit you. At first you just want help. Then, you hope someone can stop the pain and dry your tears. You cry, kick and scream as doctors tell you there is no fixing you. It takes awhile to process your disbelief.
Finally, you begin to embrace your new normal the best you can. It’s hard and I mean really hard. Especially when “your” dreams feel shattered. Because the pain is within you there’s no running from it. Honestly, your only way of coping is drugs or Jesus. When you choose to trust Jesus you rediscover God’s peace and learn to fully rely on His promises no matter what life brings.
“Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding; in all your ways submit to him, and he will make your paths straight. Proverbs 3:5-6