Another Saturday Night
Last night my body felt every degree of temperature change. Any coolness in the air cuts straight through my lower body. Even sleeping in pants, socks and on a heated mattress cover I’m still being impacted. As I continue to recover from my recent shot. It’s been quite a double team of preying on my body’s weakness. In many respects it’s just another Saturday night.
As I lay here about to go to sleep my heart keeps pounding. I really can’t remember the last time my heart wasn’t pounding on a Saturday night. While I’ve come so far I still feel so very weak. I’m talking the kind of weakness that frightens you deeply. That feeling that you’ve lost all control and things will never be the same.
One thing for sure is it plays with your confidence. That is you no longer feel you can trust in yourself. Maybe that’s exactly where God is trying to lead me. He wants me to realize that only He can give me the next breathe. Only He can give me a calming peace. So, once again I must free fall into His arms.
“We don’t have the right to claim that we have done anything on our own. God gives us what it takes to do all we do.”
2 Corinthians 3:5 (CEV)