Help Me Do Better Jesus
I hate days like today. There’s been very few moments that I’ve not been miserable. I’m also very mad at myself. Once again I didn’t respect my nerve condition enough in recent days. It’s that denial I talk about often. You start feeling better so you think you’ve been cured. You want to believe you’ve totally overcome this thorn in your flesh.
Honestly, I’ve been doing so much better overall in recent weeks. But, I’m just really upset at myself right now. So, I will do whatever it takes to get quality sleep tonight. I will operate proactively to ensure I don’t repeat recent stupid behavior. I don’t have a choice but to calculate my every step. I must always control what I can control. This means living with a constant recovery mindset.
This demands I operate with the right routines. I need to do stretching exercises at least twice daily. I need to walk enough, but not too much. When I know my body is nearing a danger zone I must stop working. I know I can do better. I will do better and feel better soon. God please help me not have another day like this anytime soon.
“I can do everything through Christ who gives me strength.” Philippians 5:13