I Should Not Be Surprised
It’s been several weeks since my nervous system last crashed. Lord knows I’ve been doing all I can to eat right and live right with my condition. However, Christmas Eve and Christmas Day I totally abandoned my daily diet. I knew in my heart there would be some pain to follow. Had no idea that my entire body would be vibrating with pain so quickly.
Once again a huge confirmation that my diet has been changing my life. Without warning my heart began racing and my nerves just crashed. Thank God I don’t typically feel this way. It’s paralyzing and very deflating. All this has come from just one day of me consuming a lot of sugar. Just one day of me eating like a mad man whatever I desired.
Been eating totally clean all day. Hoping now to cleanse this out with water and sleep. These breakdowns are so hard to explain to most. It’s like suddenly relapsing in your recovery journey. You feel like you were doing so good. Then, boom you find yourself in pieces on the ground. With time and rest this will change soon. While all the food was very tempting and delicious. There’s no doubt I clearly lived outside of what I knew was best for me.
“If anyone, then, knows the good they ought to do and doesn’t do it, it is sin for them.” James 4:17