Still Learning Balance
Laying here on my side waiting on my body to settle down. I’m still not used to putting myself to bed early like an old man. Time keeps proving it’s my new normal. I keep showing it takes time learning to live with a new balance. I guess we’re always kinda seeking our past way of life.
The last few days have been long and intense. God is doing so much at the same time. God windows are every direction. And, I don’t like to miss any opportunity to save a life. I also realize I’m not the savior.
I’ve always been an all or nothing person . When I jump into something I go all the way. My body and mind’s limitations are revealing themselves daily. Today should have been my day off. But, my heart got kicked into fifth gear. It ended up dragging my body several more miles than normal.
My overall nerve pain is fine. All my recovery efforts are on track. My nerve wrecked body just can’t go like it used to go. And, if I push it too far I’m left with a lot of unnecessary aching. So, here I am again saying God help me to keep learning balance. Keep me from the trap of today’s rat race. Help me to embrace my limitations. While I also seek to follow you with great expectations.
“You say, “I am allowed to do anything”—but not everything is good for you. You say, “I am allowed to do anything”—but not everything is beneficial.” 1 Corinthians 10:23