When The Pain Runs Deep
Toxins have been building up inside of me for weeks. Last week was very tough. This week has been tolerable, but still somewhere miserable. My nerve pain is consuming my body. My entire face is flooded with painful nerve sensations. I feel so irritable most of the time due to my ramped up pain. The later in gets at night all I can do is pray God uses my meds to put me to sleep.
Fortunately, I understand what I’m dealing with best one can. Time has revealed that my permanent nerve damage is easily flared by certain stress, foods, physical activity and lack of rest. There’s no doubt something in my life or diet has to change. I’m doing everything I can to discover the problem by process of elimination.
To say my condition is life altering is an understatement. I hate to admit it, but it handicaps me greatly. All I can do is what I can do. God is my strength and shelter from this constant storm. I seek to learn everyday how to avoid things getting worse. However, lately my condition has certainly got the best of me.
Earlier I did have a great visit with my parents. Dad’s pain has been kept under control all day. Praise God he will get a CT scan with contrast done this Friday. Then, hopefully we discover soon what is causing such pain in his temple. This issue has been affecting dad’s quality of life and vision for far too long. But, I’m very happy to see him much calmer these days.
Whatever pain you’re going through right now. Know that you’re not alone. I know firsthand it’s not something you just get over. When it’s deep pain only God can take you through it. Just keep putting your little hand in His big hand.
“Trust in the Lord with all your heart; do not depend on your own understanding. Seek his will in all you do, and he will show you which path to take. Don’t be impressed with your own wisdom. Instead, fear the Lord and turn away from evil. Then you will have healing for your body and strength for your bones.” Proverbs 3:5-8