MY BACK IS ON FIRE 🔥 

The inflammation in my lower back has been rising and rising the past few days. I’ve pretty much been staying on heat or ice constantly. Early this morning, I knew I was in for a very long day. Not just because my entire day would be busy. But, I just knew my deep pain was about to bend me over. 

Around 6am this morning my dermatitis was raging. I had painful red splotches deep in my hands. I knew these were directly connected to my extreme lower back pain. These splotches looked like someone branded or tattooed the insides of my hands. It’s like having pain you can’t reach because it’s stuck inside your skin. 

My back has had me squirming all day long. By God’s grace, I was able to get through a very long, painful day. Lying here on ice the pain is extreme again and those splotches have resurfaced in my hands. My legs are aching and aching. They’ve felt at best 40% all day long. 

I guess God needed to grab my attention just a little bit more. It’s very hard to master such life altering pain. It’s also hard to fake it while you make it. Extreme pain will run you down and quickly leave you gasping for relief. 

I’m so grateful that everyday God takes me through my pain. I certainly don’t like how it makes me feel. I often wish I could jump out of this body. However, we all have our painful crosses to bear. Mine just happens to include a very broken body. 

Anytime I write something it’s usually in the eye of my struggle. I want whoever reading this to know you’re not alone. I know it’s tough to keep going at times. I know not everyone understands your pain. I’ve found the only one way through the pain is faith walking. Run to Jesus, lean on Jesus, walk with Jesus and trust Jesus with every step forward. He will give you what you need. 

“I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me.” Philippians 4:13