Trusting God For The Victory
I hope you don’t mind my honesty through this journey. It would be dishonest to only share the good and not the bad. Lately most moments have just felt bad. It’s just been a series of setbacks, suffering, and confusion. I’m back in the tub just trying to get my nerves to settle and me possibly motivated to go for a walk. If this is how my body is gonna feel in the winter months months every year I made need to go live in the Bahamas.
Right now I know in my heart I’m on a slippery slope. I don’t have much of an appetite. I just want to go back to sleep after 12 hours in the bed. And I just find it harder and harder to get motivated to do anything. Even as I write this I’m hoping to coach myself forward.
It feels like I’m in a deep hole, but I can still see the light. I’m not sitting around crying or just feeling sorry for myself. I’m just trying to keep believing in God’s unlimited ability in the midst of my inability. I know this for sure: God is writing a story that in the end only He can take credit for the victory.
(Romans 8:35-39)(NLT) Can anything ever separate us from Christ’s love? Does it mean he no longer loves us if we have trouble or calamity, or are persecuted, or hungry, or destitute, or in danger, or threatened with death? (As the Scriptures say, “For your sake we are killed every day; we are being slaughtered like sheep.”) No, despite all these things, overwhelming victory is ours through Christ, who loved us.
And I am convinced that nothing can ever separate us from God’s love. Neither death nor life, neither angels nor demons,p neither our fears for today nor our worries about tomorrow—not even the powers of hell can separate us from God’s love. No power in the sky above or in the earth below—indeed, nothing in all creation will ever be able to separate us from the love of God that is revealed in Christ Jesus our Lord.