Hope Is Such A Big Word
Many of you know I’ve spent a lot of long days and nights in lots of pain. So many that in my human mind I felt like that might never change. After all I’ve tried everything in hopes of some relief. Countless physical therapy sessions, several pain shots, surgery, a spinal cord stimulator, a trial Rhizotomy, massages, a million different meds, and lots of daily prayers. I really felt it was time that I accept my condition and quit hoping I would ever feel better.
Recently, I’ve really cranked up my prayer life. As well as I know hundreds that have been praying for me. This morning I woke up in a lot of pain. In fact, I doubted that I would even get out the bed for the day. When my first of several alarms went off I took my normal medication along with an increased dose of my nerve pain med.
Maybe an hour had passed by after swallowing my medication. Then, suddenly I felt most of my pain just melting away. I started walking all throughout the house praising God while listening to Christian music on the radio. Then, after drinking some coffee to take away the medication produced fog I was able to sit for several hours and just study God’s word.
After 5 hours of constant relief I had not felt in likely a year I headed outside to walk. I just kept walking and walking. While I knew all my pain was not gone for good it no longer mattered. Because in the course of just one day God had breathed back into my heart HOPE. A word I was afraid I would never associate with my health ever again this side of Heaven.
Now, even as I write this my legs are throbbing and my body is weary. But, I’ve been reminded who is still in control. All it takes is one touch of the Master’s hand. God had recently impressed upon my heart the need to pray boldly and believing Him for my miracle. Today will always be remembered as a miracle day when God showed He can even when I can’t. Thank you Jesus for moments that restore our faith and hope in You.
“ For I know the plans I have for you,” says the Lord. “They are plans for good and not for disaster, to give you a future and a hope.”