My temporary trials continue to compel me to my knees. This is not a time to give up, but instead press in closer than ever to my loving Heavenly Father. So much is coming together while so much is falling apart. My private prayer life and personal bible study time are at an all time high. Not because I’m super spiritual, but because I realize more than ever my extreme dependence upon an almighty God.
Typically the anesthesia they give me prior to surgery lingers in my body for a day or two. Well I can promise you it has officially and totally gone away. My discomfort level tonight has definitely risen around my incision. Besides reopening a big incision they put a much larger battery implant 4cm deeper into my body. While later I’m sure it will be great right now it feels like things have been ripped open and more metal stuffed into my body.
Try dealing with this with no breakthrough pain meds because you’re highly allergic to anything with codeine. Rotating ibuprofen and Tylenol just don’t cut it. I’ve said many times that it’s a blessing and a curse to have the allergies I do to most narcotics. It’s only by the grace of God that I’ve not become hooked on some strong substance during this journey.
As I lay here on my side once again on ice I just keep hearing the words “Just Wait.” A time is coming that you will be restored. A time is coming that this will all be worth the momentary life disruption. Just wait my child and you will see that this is accomplishing so much for the glory of God. Just wait and your faith and strength will be renewed to levels greater than you can imagine. So, I will continue to wait on the Lord and know God is working more than I can ever fathom even through the pain.
“Do you not know? Have you not heard? The Lord is the everlasting God, the Creator of the ends of the earth. He will not grow tired or weary, and his understanding no one can fathom. He gives strength to the weary and increases the power of the weak. Even youths grow tired and weary, and young men stumble and fall; but those who hope in the Lord will renew their strength.They will soar on wings like eagles; they will run and not grow weary, they will walk and not be faint.”