Please Stop This Merry Go Round
It’s only been 2 1/2 hours since I last posted how much better I felt. And, in my mind and heart I still believe it. But, the pain has actually intensified over the past two hours. Yes, I realize I’m only 2 1/2 days into my recovery from surgery. But, it’s amazing to me how quickly things can change.
First of all, both hips are beyond sore from laying on my sides. I can’t even put the slightest bit of pressure on my left side. However, because of the new battery implant on my right side I can’t just lay flat on my back or easily on my right side. It can be so frustrating when you’re dealing with something you can’t ever figure out. Don’t forget the fact that my usual nerve pain issues are easily flared up.
I’ve slept most of the day. Now, I’ve been back in the bed since 7pm. Not being able to take true breakthrough pain meds due to side effects has led to many miserable nights. I have taken some meds that should at least ease something and for sure help me sleep. I would give anything for someone to stop this merry go round. But, I’ve just got to hold on and remember who is holding on to me.
“Yet I still belong to you; you hold my right hand.”