5am 4/8/18
I’m very concerned about today. I’ve gotten maybe 4 hours of sleep as I’ve been tossing and turning since 1:30am. I can feel my nerve pain running through every vein like ice water. It’s even up in my chest which only happens when it’s really bad. By the grace of God alone do I ever make it through any Sunday preaching. All I can say is God picks me up and carries me. I’m always concerned that I’m not gonna make it through without collapsing. The past few days and nights have really depleted me. Lord Jesus, Please strengthen me and hold me together as only You can. I need You more than ever to override my nervous system and just assure my heart everything will be alright. God please use me despite me!
