Still Praying For A Miracle

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I’ve experienced this countless times and it’s still hard to explain. I’ve been in the tub or bed since last night. Presently my lower back, legs and feet feel like they are plugged up to an electrical outlet with very high voltage. About 30 minutes ago my phone rang and I attempted to answer it. Just from that one phone call my nerve pain rose from a normal beach wave to a tidal wave within me. Let me break this process down further for you. 

First of all, it’s like already having some magnetic field running through you always at least a low level. But, knowing the slightest sound  movement, or even thought can lead to that magnetic field within totally overtaking your body. My nerve pain can move from my feet to my face in just seconds. Presently, it’s sitting all the way up in my chest. It’s like you’ve poured a toxic liquid into me that is filling up my body from my feet to my chest. When it gets much higher all I can do is take a Valium and keep praying “Help Me God.”

Very similar to a normal seizure I have neurological seizures. It’s like my entire nervous system breaker box has been knocked out by lightning. And with that outage comes a lack of being able to handle even the slightest conversation, sound, or movement. During that time all I can do is lie still, pray continuously and wait for some order within my nervous system to be restored. My doctor says that only 10 percent of people anywhere who who battle with nerve pain have it to my degree. Mainly because of how much percentage of my body is affected by this nerve damage. For this reason all I can keep praying for is my miracle. 

“ When they came to the crowd, a man approached Jesus and knelt before him. “Lord, have mercy on my son,” he said. “He has seizures and is suffering greatly. He often falls into the fire or into the water. I brought him to your disciples, but they could not heal him.”

“You unbelieving and perverse generation,” Jesus replied, “how long shall I stay with you? How long shall I put up with you? Bring the boy here to me.” Jesus rebuked the demon, and it came out of the boy, and he was healed at that moment. Then the disciples came to Jesus in private and asked, “Why couldn’t we drive it out?” He replied, “Because you have so little faith. Truly I tell you, if you have faith as small as a mustard seed, you can say to this mountain, ‘Move from here to there,’ and it will move. Nothing will be impossible for you.”

(Matthew 17:14-20)

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