Still In The Waiting Room
Life around me keeps flying by like a rocket. I’m doing everything I possibly can to keep up. I give my absolute best with every step I can take. However, whether it be my 6am, 2pm, 8pm, or 10pm medicine alarms they all find me still in much pain. Over the past 32 months I’ve now been to 18 different health facilities. I’ve gone to over 180 different health appointments. I’ve travelled over 12,000 miles just to get to them.
When I say I’ve spent quite awhile in the waiting room I mean it in every since of the word. Go ahead and add to the above that I still spend two thirds of every day either in the bed or tub seeking relief from this nerve pain. This morning my parents will take me to get another epidural injection in hopes of some relief in the days to come. But, after many shots, surgeries, therapy, and a spinal cord stimulator has not gotten you there you really don’t go in with high hopes.
Now, when I say I have little hope that’s simply in what man can do. I’m exhausted, I’m clueless and they seem to be clueless too as to anything else that can be done. However, this is where faith must begin. It’s where man realizes what he can’t, but must trust in a God who can. Yes, it defies all human reasoning that I could ever be healed or overcome this severe nerve damage. But, I’m still waiting and it’s not for the next doctor appointment. I waiting before the Lord Jesus believing He is using every moment, preparing me for greater things, and will renew my strength in due time.
“Have you never heard?
Have you never understood?
The Lord is the everlasting God,
the Creator of all the earth.
He never grows weak or weary.
No one can measure the depths of his understanding.
He gives power to the weak and strength to the powerless.
Even youths will become weak and tired, and young men will fall in exhaustion.
But those who trust in the Lord will find new strength.
They will soar high on wings like eagles.
They will run and not grow weary.
They will walk and not faint.