A Very Very Tough Day Ahead
I won’t get into all the details on here as to all that I’ve gone through over the past 2 1/2 years. I will say that there is nothing worse than when you already feel really bad having to deal with lots of daily unnecessary stress. Today is another one of those days for me and I’m not looking forward to it. My body which is not used to even 15 minutes of intentional exercise per day is going to have to endure 3 to 4 hours of exercise today.
Last time I tried going through even half of this type of physical evaluation I suffered a complete neurological breakdown. I’ve been dreading this day for days. But, I’m having to go through this because my daily pain is still being questioned by Workman’s Compensation. Anyone who has gone through this grueling interrogation process for a long period of time in my kind of pain knows it’s an earthly form of Hell. You’re already in the fight of your life in so many ways and can hardly bare the thought of any other battle.
Most don’t realize that I’ve easily gone to 150-200 appointments over this time concerning my health. I’ve given everything I have to give towards my recovery. I’m still giving everything as I fight around the clock daily to not roll any further backwards. I could have long ago just laid on my couch and drowned myself in depressive thoughts. However, that’s not what I’ve done and that’s not what I’m gonna do. I’m gonna keep doing all I can while trusting God to do all that I can’t. I would greatly appreciate your prayers for my sanity especially today as I know it will be tested.
“The Lord watches over the way of the righteous, but the way of the wicked leads to destruction.”