Hope Despite Chaos
Right now my entire life feels upside down. Just simply walking is a chore. Trying to think clearly is nearly impossible with my medications. My days feel so long and agonizing. I’m literally giving everything over to God by the minute. It’s only because of Him I still have confidence and peace moving forward.
If anyone could see clearly into my chaos they would wonder how I can have such hope. They would likely wonder if I need my brain checked. They would probably see all of my expectations as wishful thinking. That I just need to accept my physical condition and what it will forever bring into my life. However, those people would be looking through eyes of the flesh not faith.
I’m not banking any of my hopes on my condition or power to change it. I have no idea what will or will not be tomorrow. But, I know God does have a master plan. He will carry me through every up and down ahead. He will not fail me, nor forsake me. Whatever has happened or will happen will not ruin His plans for my life. Therefore, I’m keeping my little hand in His big hand. I’m waiting and trusting God for my healing. For the bright future He has promised to those who love, honor, and wait on Him.
“But those who wait on the Lord
Shall renew their strength; They shall mount up with wings like eagles, They shall run and not be weary,
They shall walk and not faint.” (Isaiah 40:31