I Should Have Known
I’ve been experiencing some major spiritual breakthroughs recently. God has been at work in mighty ways both in and around me. Things I’ve prayed about for so long. Dreams God gave me years ago have finally been coming true. It’s no coincidence I just ran into another flaming struggle.
I hate this feeling so much. It’s like someone flipped a switch within me. Evidently they moved it from calm to crazy. My body hurts so bad. My nerves are skyrocketing. My heart is pounding as I just didn’t see this coming. Satan is really trying to rattle my cage.
This is always the pattern of things it seems. You have one major breakthrough and then it’s followed by some major breakdown. In these moments I feel so misunderstood and powerless. My own wife has seen this happen over and over again. Yet, even she can only observe something I could never fully explain. I’m holding on to the Lord with all my might. I thought I was alright over an hour ago. Yet, here I am again in the flames of great anxiety and pain. I must be still and let God fight for me. I once again need His calming touch to make it through.
“When you go through deep waters, I will be with you. When you go through rivers of difficulty, you will not drown. When you walk through the fire of oppression, you will not be burned up; the flames will not consume you.” (Isaiah 43:2)