God Is Not Done
After taking a Valium earlier mid afternoon I finally settled down some. I slept over three hours. Something I never do during the day. But, my nerve wrecked body gave me no choice. I still feel overall like I’ve experienced some traumatic event. My nerves are just very stirred within. I’m still not comfortable in my own skin.
There’s no denying that these things are always associated with breakthrough moments. I’m determined and I’m trying with everything I’ve got to move forward by faith. I know God is leading my heart. In fact, I know He is holding my heart. Otherwise, I would have long ago been in some psychiatric ward.
Somehow this is part of my story. This pain, this thorn in my flesh. I’ve really never asked God to remove all my problems or fix me. I just keep asking Him to hold me together and use everything for His glory. Pain is a part of this life. We all have to learn how to walk through it by faith. Personally, I’m still learning everyday.
I know this for sure. God has proven His faithfulness time and time again. Just when I think I’m paralyzed he resurrects my spirit. Just when I think I’m useless. He shows me one more soul that is being encouraged through my faithfulness. I don’t know what the future holds. But, I do know who holds the future.
“And I am certain that God, who began the good work within you, will continue his work until it is finally finished on the day when Christ Jesus returns.” Philippians 1:6